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Anonymous asked: Suicide hotline: 1-800-273-8255 Oh gee, Thanks… |
I want to do it, I really do. I just have this urge to go with the suicide idea. It takes over my mind sometimes and I just feel like I should just let it go and do it. Life would go on anyway I guess it was stupid to think I could ever make a difference in a person’s life. I’ve failed my parents, I’ve failed my friends, I’ve even failed myself. There’s no point in denying it I might as well just end the misery now while I can.
do none of you like My Chemical Romance or
back in eigth grade :> not now though
(Source: violetporcelain)
A strange angry, like just blowing off everything. Just kick and scream and do whatever the fuck I want, and if someone get’s pissy or butthurt just tell them to fuck off like it was nothing. I don’t know, I feel out of place but it feels good…
Where to begin, I barely talk to her but I have this feeling deep down inside she at least cares about me somewhat, even if she didn’t I can’t lie and say I don’t care about her. She means a lot to me because she doesn’t hate me or dislike me. I miss her quite a bit and that one Friday afternoon being with my closest friends made me go through a rollercoaster of emotions I can’t say I could ever forget it. It was undescribable.
After she got into the hospital I felt helpless, guilty and for some stupid reason. I felt responsible, I just wish I could’ve visited her. I wish I could’ve been there for her, I mean she told me happy birthday when honestly I thought no one would have, She made me realize I’m not such a loser, maybe a little but not a total one. I just feel terrible that I couldn’t go and see her. I cried a little because of that. And Angela was right, I can never keep a promise, I’m a total disappointment and sometimes I wonder, Why try? I end up failing. I’m sorry Aileen. I’m sorry for everything.
